How the weekend went

It's Sunday night and I'm feeling pretty good about how the weekend went for the most part. We had a change of plans on Friday night and didn't end up going to the place for dinner that we thought we would. Instead we went out to dinner and a movie with friends. I ordered a pulled pork sandwich with kettle chips and wine for dinner. We had an appetizer that we shared (tortilla chips and dips), so by the time dinner came I wasn't super hungry anymore. The chips were gross so I didn't eat those, and I only ate half of my sandwich. At the movie I had a small pack of reeses pieces that only ended up being about 200 calories so I really don't regret that. On Saturday I went to the gym and then took the dog on a walk like I planned on, and had a sensible lunch at home. I was really excited because I got to wear my bodybugg to the wedding we went to because my sleeves were long. The wedding was fun I don't feel too bad about what I ate (even just had a tiny piece of cake) but I drank way too much and paid for it today. Today I took the dog on a walk to my mom's house after lunch and made a couple of healthy dinners that will help feed us for the next couple of weeks. Then my mom made chicken on the grill for dinner! We'll see what the scale says in the morning, but I don't think I did too bad this weekend!!!

Good week

I did pretty good this week, I'm really proud of myself. I brought my lunch to work every day (going out for lunch today for the first time in 2 weeks), I worked out every morning even though I was sick, and I took went on a walk 2 nights this week (I was striving for 3 but I didn't feel good and Tuesday night I was just beat when I got home from work). I'm a little bummed that I didn't get 3 night walks in, but at the same time, I'm proud of myself for doing as much as I did! Now to make it through the weekend :/
Weekends are definitely my weakness, so I need to come up with a plan. Tonight we're going to a restaurant that we've never been to before but we have a gift certificate for it that expires soon. It's just a little Italian joint and there's no website so I'm not sure what their menu looks like. My goal for tonight is to make good choices based on the menu, and to stop when I'm full! I think that's one of the hardest things for me to do when I'm eating out- I feel like I have to eat everything in front of me, and then I regret it right away. Tomorrow we don't have any plans during the day so my goals are to go to the gym and weight train, and then take the dog on a walk like I did last Saturday and to eat a healthy lunch at home. We're going to a wedding tomorrow night which is scary because I have no idea what kind of food they will serve, so again my goal is just to stop when I'm full. Sunday should be a pretty easy day to stay on track- I'm going to spend the afternoon at my mom's house preparing meals to freeze and eat next week. My plan is to walk to her house in the morning and then have her drive me home at night with the food! I know I'll eat healthy because she doesn't keep a lot of crap food at her house!
My ultimate goal for the weekend is to not gain weight. I weighed myself this morning and I was 155.8 so my goal is to be no more than that on Monday morning! We'll see!!!

What to do....

UGH! So after my post yesterday I was feeling awesome about my goals. Even though I have a cold, I wasn't feeling too bad after work last night so I took another walk (beyond my goal of Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday night walks this week!). Then went to bed. I woke up this morning feeling ok, went to the gym and got my work out in. As the day has gone on I just feel more and more sick. I'd really like to get at least a little walk in tonight. We'll see how I feel when I get home. It's just so frusterating, it seems like EVERY TIME I finally recommit to my goals something like this happens- I get sick, or I get injured, or something! I'm going to try my best to not let it get to me. If I don't go on a walk tonight, oh well, I went on one last night and can still get 3 nights in this week right??

Update time!

Yesterday I took the dog on a walk and had a conversation with myself. Since I last posted, I’ve had a major internal battle going on. On the one hand I’m VERY proud of my accomplishments and how far I’ve come in the last 9-10 months. On the other hand I’m rather disappointed with myself that I’ve come so far, and let myself stay at such a stand-still for so long now (since July-ish). Last Sunday I made a deal with myself that I was going to start really trying to take a walk at night some nights (so two work outs a day essentially). I’m proud to say that I did this Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday last week. On my Friday morning walk I came up with goals for the weekend. My goal was simply to take a walk on Sunday (something I’ve been quite lazy about lately). I did my weight training on Saturday and then immediately took the dog out for a walk when I got home from the gym, which I was proud of. I woke up Sunday morning with a cold. Went to brunch with friends (bad choice food wise), and then came home and took a 2 hour nap. I knew we had dinner plans (pizza) with my in-laws at 5:30- it was 4:00. I put on my work out clothes and took a walk. I was proud of myself but this is when I had the conversation with myself. I decided that I’m ready to leap over this next hurdle and get through this plateau. I told myself that I’ve been working WAY too hard during the week to essentially throw it all away by eating (and drinking) like crap on the weekends.

Oh, forgot to mention- I also made a deal with myself that I’m going to stop eating out for lunch so often (every day) and bring my lunch the majority of the time. I’m proud to say that this has been another major accomplishment of mine this past week. I only ate out once last week and it was for my grandma’s 97th birthday- so I think that’s allowed!

So, I still have to come up with a battle plan, but I need to get my weekends under control. I’ve discovered that it’s really easy for me to make excuses for myself on the weekends and that it all comes down to making better decisions. This is the best time of year for me to do this because Nic’s usually occupied with a football game on Sundays so I’m on my own (and for some reason it’s easier for me to eat at home when I’m on my own, maybe because I don’t want to eat out by myself?). If I could stick to one meal out per weekend I would be SUPER proud of myself. I know there are going to be weekends where this isn’t possible, but I’m going to try really hard! I also know that on those weekends when it’s not possible, I can make better choices about where I eat out, or what I eat when I’m out.
Right now on my bodybugg system I have a goal of 145 (I think) by Christmas (which will be 1 year from when I started doing the program). Realistically if I get to 150 by then I’ll be elated! Heck, if I could just get consistently under 155 I’d be happy!
My goals for this week are to keep up with the eating in for lunch, keep up with the 2 work outs per day, and make better choices this weekend!

About time!

Wow, I knew it had been a long time since I'd posted something, but I didn't think it had been over a month! I was going to say that not a lot has been happening, and that's why I haven't posted, but I guess that's not entirely true!

I've been sticking to my workouts and eating right, but the scale hasn't been changing too much. Normally that would really piss me off, but honestly, I'm at a really good place right now. I'm hovering right around 155-158 and am really comfortable with that number. I'm not saying I'm done trying to lose, but I'm not going to beat myself up if I go a few weeks without seeing that number drop. Last month brought a lot of challenges (hello state fair!) so I'm proud to just be able to say that I didn't gain anything. I also just got back from a 5 day vacation, which is usually trouble for me, but I went into it with a plan that I was going to try to keep breakfasts and lunches about the same as they would be at home, try not to snack more than I needed to, and go on long walks every day. I'm proud to say that I took a 1 hour walk every day, and watched what I ate, while still letting myself enjoy "vacation food". I weighed about a pound more this morning than I did the morning that I left, and for me, that's a success! I'm also proud that I got right back into the swing of things and went to the gym this morning.

The major success I'm celebrating right now is that, even though the scale hasn't changed much in the past month or so, my body definitely has. I had to go shopping for new work pants a couple of weeks ago and have now started buying (almost exclusively) a size 10. I seriously don't ever remember being a size 10. Never. Even in high school I was a size 12/14. So that's way awesome!

My main goal going forward is to keep up with my work outs, and possibly add some in. I've started to try and take walks with Nic and the dog at night when there's nothing good on tv. I figure I'd rather be out being active than sitting on the couch watching something I really could care less about.

Great week!

I had a really good week this week. I stayed on track with my eating, worked out EVERY SINGLE DAY, and just had an overall good attitude! I'm back down to the lowest weight I ever remember seeing on a scale, and I had one of the best runs ever today.

The work week was pretty uneventful, but I did good. This weekend was awesome. For the first time in a LONG time, we went into the weekend with no plans. It's so much easier for me to stay on track eating wise when I have no plans because I'm more likely to eat at home, which I did this weekend for every meal except dinner Saturday night (ate healthy though).

Sunday I got up and did my 5k...it started off HORRIBLE! I had aweful side aches on BOTH SIDES, they hurt so bad I was only able to run for 2 minutes at a time. I kept telling myself that the goal was to finish, not to keep beating my best time. After about 15 minutes of 2 minute walk/2 minute run, I finally started feeling better. Now, before this weekend the longest amount of time I'd run straight for was 8 minutes, but today, I finished out the 5k and ran the last 14 minutes straight. I left the gym on such a high, it felt awesome! I ended up about even with my best time yet (33/34 minutes). After the gym we went out on a friend's boat for the rest of the day and I avoided alcohol, and bad food (with the exception of a handful of chips).

I hope I can keep this up because it feels awesome!

Lifestyle

I've been thinking about this post all morning and I'm still not sure what direction to take it in. This last week has been a roller coaster in terms of the scale, and my mind frame. My "weigh in day" on my bodybugg site is Wednesdays. Last Wednesday I was on top of the world...the scale read 156.8 that morning. HOLY. COW. Now, normally my brain would start trying to rationalize and say things like "well, it's just luck", or "the scale must be wrong". But that day, I owned it, I knew I had been on the right track from what the scale had said earlier in the week. However, every day since then, the number on the scale continued to rise. Today I'm back at 160.something (I don't remember what exactly). On one hand I'm bummed out. My mini goal on bodybugg right now is 155 by August 8th. And I so know that I could have done it, but now I'm not so sure. I'm not going to make any excuses, I just haven't been eating great. I haven't been eating horribly, but I haven't been making as good of choices as I could. But, at the same time, I'm still proud of where I am.

I realized this morning that this is my lifestyle now. It's no longer a "diet" or routine that I'm on just to lose the weight. It truly is my lifestyle now. And that's awesome. I'm used to going to the gym, I'm used to eating healthy food. Are there mornings when I wake up and don't want to go to the gym? Sure, this morning was one of them. I had a fight with myself for about 10 minutes, go back to bed or go to the gym? I compromised with myself and took the dog on a walk. And that's ok, even though this was supposed to be a weight training day and not a cardio day. Honestly, I'm sick of last months workouts and I haven't gotten my new ones for this month yet so instead of going to the gym and half assing it (which is totally what I would have done) I got myself (and the dog) moving for a half hour instead of laying in bed doing nothing. Are there days when I want to eat like shit? DUH!!!! And sometimes I allow myself to, because I know now that one meal, or even one day of eating bad isn't going to hurt as long as I get back on track!

So, no matter what the scale says on "weigh in day" tomorrow, I'm still proud of myself, and I know that eventually, the scale will say 155. If it's by August 8th that's awesome, if it's not until September 8th, that's awesome too! Because I'm doing something good for myself either way.